should’ve been

you made me change the way i perceive men. because you are a hopeless romantic, a very passionate lover, though lovers we never were, or will ever be. your love is so pure and so deep and it stirs something inside me awake.

i should’ve been Her.
should’ve been the one you have loved for the most of your quarter-life of Existence. someone like you, a guy who falls really hard, should’ve fallen in love with a girl like me who falls Really hard, too.
you should’ve met me first.
you should’ve taken me to that park, to that beach, to your apartment.

you should be writing Stories of love– of your love to me. the kind of love that gives you butterflies in the stomach, sleepless nights, silly smiles, that keeps you going everyday, that reminds you of just One face– mine– that you want to see for every single day of your life, every waking part of your life. every hour, every minute and every second.

Not the kind of love that consumes you, devours you until you are Just an empty shell, that kind of love you harbor that expects something in return but receives nothing instead, that kind of love that makes you doubt yourself. that makes yoU feel how really miserable love can be. that makes you spend your hard-earned fortune to some faraway strange land and in the end get disappointed and come home empty-handed, all hope gone, and stripped away. and still, the kind of love which clings, remains, lingers, consumes..

you are the one i want and i don’t even know you. all i know is i want you. because you are an immensely talented man who writes really well, though i never saw you write. who can play the guitar, though i never heard you play. who sings with a good voice, though i never heard you sing. who speaks so smart, though i never heard you talk. who plays basketball, though i never saw you play.
you made me change the way i perceive men. because you are a hopeless romantic, a very passionate lover, though lovers we never were, or will ever be. your love is so pure and so deep and it stirs something inside me awake.
but the object of your affection is not me.
she is the Embodiment of perfection. a Goddess who came down to earth in humanly form.
i cannot compete, i am a mere mortal, a mere fledgling.
so i will admire yOu from a distance. you are far away from me and I will keep me safe by keeping it that way.

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4 thoughts on “should’ve been

  1. You seem to know him quite well after all, though I suppose he must have only shown you a small part of who he is. Tip of the iceberg, so they say. Unsolicited advice: don’t allow him to let you know everything about him. It can be risky. For you. And for him. 🙂

  2. Thanks for the piece of advice. But don’t worry about me. This is actually a work of fiction and I imagine things when I want to feel something, you know? And I write them down because goddamnshit I want to improve my writing skills, hahahhah so I write anything down. And if this is real? Well, we take risks all the time. Knowing someone, or choosing not to.. It’s the same, at least in my own perspective. We take risks all the time. I would love to meet new people and gaining new friends in the process. 🙂

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